Well this is my first time posting and I have a alot to get out. I'll start from the beginning. I never really wanted to have children, I always thought it wasn't for me. Then two years ago my younger sister (18) had a baby and had problems. The baby was fine it was my sister who had problems. A few weeks after the birth she ended up in the hospital with 2 blood clots in her lung resulting from her c-section. After lots of testing we find out she has a clotting disorder Factor V Leiden. She spent 8 days in critical care. I wasn't working at the time so I of course took my new born niece for the two weeks surrounding the event. I fell in love with the idea of having my own. After testing we find that my father, myself and both my sisters were positive for factor V but younger is only one who ever had symptoms. I mean how is that possible it only have a 25% chance of passing and all three of his girls get it? So off birth control I went in September of last year. We talk and I tell dh of my idea and we talked a lot, finally he agrees and we decided to start trying. Here is were the mess begins. I have a normal AF in October of 08 then a month later no AF, and another and another, so on and so forth. 8 months no AF, doctor forces one then waits, one then none for two more months. He calls it post pill amenorrhea, but I am difficult cause I can't take the normal treatment of hormones cause of the clotting factor. So we wait some more no AF so he passes me off to a RE who runs all kinds of tests and then puts me on progesterone & clomid (which I really shouldn't of had) and I had the worst AF I've ever had, painful and very heavy which is unusual for me. But now three months later we are getting regular. Sooo...we start charting and trying and waiting. She athen ran a semen analysis on DH and they drop a bomb, low count and low motility :s what are the chances...we finally decide to have a baby and years of being so careful and now we both have fertility issues...come on give me a break. So they say to me it is unlikely that I will be able to conceive using natural methods. So here we are a year later trying to find a urologist in our area who can help us and probably IUI's. The sad part of this is my poor dh. He was so sure that he would check out fine. He was already showing signs that the stress of baby making was getting to him, he said he felt like a gas station, just fill 'er up! Now he talks like well maybe it just wasn't meant to be, or we have to think about this logically, there comes a time we will just need to give up. We haven't even talked to his doctor yet and he seems ready to throw in the towel. I don't know what to do..I'm so frustrated and scared. I just wanted a baby, people are having accidents all the time but I want one and can't. It seems so unfair. I know this was long and rambling and I don't know if anyone will even read this but I feel a little better just getting it out and off my chest. Thank you to anyone that took the time to read this.
Welcome! I'm so sorry for what you've been through. My DH and I have been TTC our first for 3 years now. I actually checked out fine but he's low across the boards. We've been through all the tests, poking, and proding so I know how you feel! We went with IVF but miscarried at 6.5 weeks. We had two embryos left so we tried a FET and it failed. We have happily moved on to adoption because we long to be parents.
I know it's a hard road! Hang in there!
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