...Have really, really morbid thoughts that bring you to tears? I am constantly playing out horrible scenarios in my head to the point where I'll start to cry... I have talked to some of my mommy friends about this, and some of them have also noticed that since having their child(ren) they see the world differently and things they never even would have thought about before haunt them.

On Wednesday I went to the cemetery to visit my stepdad who died 17 years ago... I ended up walking around and looking at some of the other graves and found myself mourning several young "occupants" even though I don't know them or their family. Every time I saw a child's grave, it made me so sad... and I couldn't help but think about how horrible it would be to bury your child. I think that is quite possibly the worst thing that could happen to anyone, and at this point I don't know how I could go on if it happened to me. My daughter is my life, and I can't imagine anything worse than to have her taken from me. I know that God has a plan for these things, and those children are with Him, but I can't help but think about how cruel life can be.

I've also noticed that since having her, I have become so much more sensitive - if I see a child die in a movie I'm instantly in tears, to hear about a sick child or a child who has been abused or molested... even the children in third world countries who are orphaned and starving - it bothers me SO much. I sometimes think about car accidents, and what I would do if my vehicle ended up in the river and I had to get Rayna out of the carseat... Those kinds of things.

So my question is, do you ever have these thoughts/feelings? It's not all the time that I do, but sometimes I think about all the horrible things that can happen to the point where I can't sleep at night. Since visiting the cemetery, I can't get the image of headstones surrounded by children's toys out of my head.

OH yeah I think I just put myself in the position of the parents when it comes to young people or children dying. I cant even begin to fathom the grief and only pray that I would find strength from God to get through if God forbid something happened to my kids. I also see the possible scenerios of different things like when my kids ride on four wheelers I am a paranoid freak, or like a couple years ago when we went to an amusement park for a company picnic and Eric took Austin on a big roller coaster, I kept repeating to Eric hold on to him, keep your arm across his body, watch him!! I was a nervous wreck until that ride stopped. I used to never be like that but now that I am a mommy I have that mommy instinct.

my anxiety that brings me to tears is death/dying, what happens afterwards, etc. countless times ive cried myself to sleep thinking about it.

yea i do fom time to time, i would say it's normal, though very sad, just try to relax and enjoy your baby, when i get really sad, i make Nicholas cuddle with me

Most definitely ...I think it's a totally normal thing for parents. You are responsible for this little life, for keeping them safe and away from harm, it's a huge responsibility and a heavy weight on your shoulders, especially when there are always circumstances you can't protect them from.

Yes I most definatly do. I think once you become a parent you have such a big responsiblity of protecting your child/children, that knowing there are some things that you just can not prevent or protect them from is really scary.

Totally, especially if DH goes out with the kids alone, I am always terrified. I think it's the classic example of once you have something to lose, you are terrified of losing it.

Big time. I was actually going to ask about this myself, b/c I thought I was starting to lose it. I will just be looking at one of the boys and think, "What would I do if something happened?" and then I start crying, right there in front of them. Now that my parents are gettting older (nearing 70) I start thinking about them dying too and I cry instantly. I cry even harder when I think about how the boys will react, since they're very close to all the grandparents.

it's normal.