It hitting me more this year then the last 2 that I don't have Anthony this would have been his 3rd christmas. The first year was hard. His angle ornaments are at the top of the tree. i guess now that I've been blessed with Zachary this year is a little harder when I think about it. I should have an almost 3 1/2 year old and an almost one year old. I miss Anthony everyday and every night when I tuck Zachary into bed. I'm truly blessed that I have Zachary but I can't help but wonder what life would have been like if Anthony would have survived. Thanks for letting me "vent" persay... this is the only place I can.

Just remember that he really is still with you all the time Carolyn. I know it is not the same but Anthony loves you and is always watching over you and his baby brother.

Big Hugs to you at such a hard time.

big hugs to you!!!

Big hugs to you!
We are here for you anytime you need to vent/talk.

Vent away anytime!

I know how youre feeling.My angel would be turning 3 this coming jan 2nd.Just remember your lil guy is watching over you & he'll always be with you in your heart.

yeah we're here if you need to vent/talk...

Big hugs!

thanks ladys

Oh that is so sad. Sometimes time doesnt actually heal all wounds. I am so glad that you have another beautiful boy to tuck into bed at night...

BIG HUGS! I can totally relate, the holidays always seem to bring out those emotions, and leave you wondering "what if"

Big hugs honey.